Do you ever have the feeling tomorrow can’t come fast enough? I do. We all have hopes for what tomorrow will bring. For our family, we have dreams and aspirations of reaching our destination…and just like the story of Nehemiah we have had some come against us with words of discouragement and maybe even to stand in our way. But would you expect less? I believe that the devil is coming against us but our resolve and the reason for which we are here is to do what God has put into our heart.
So, this past Tuesday we had been invited to a party for a day of celebration (Guanacaste Day) with our organization here in Costa Rica and just as we were about to go, I (Aaron) somehow managed to puncture a reservoir and the front right tire of the car all while backing out of the dumb driveway.
Have you ever had that feeling of utter defeat? That was me. I was frustrated with the fact that we now couldn’t do what we planned to do. The delay seemed to affect our whole family. Kids started to melt and the mood completely changed in our house. Hmmm, where’s the blessing in that?!
Well, as our kids went down for naps, I began to do research of where to go to get the car fixed. For a lot of men this kind of thing is an adventure. However, for me, this was a daunting and incredibly stressful thing. I don’t claim to know anything about cars. It’s not that I don’t want to, it’s that I’ve never made it a priority. Add to that being in a foreign country with a car I do not know and not being able to communicate in a way that I want. Where do I even start? Who do I call? And once I make the call, what do I say?
I decided to ask a few more seasoned people and found some places to go. The Lord directed me to a tire store. “Yo necesito nuevas llantas por favor con un buen garantí? Cuanto cuesta?” (I need new tires please with a good warranty. How much does that cost?) When they told me the price I thought that they weren’t either being honest or probably more likely I didn’t understand them. But when I got the bill I was delightfully surprised. I still didn’t fully get the message.
Then a day later after we got a nearby mechanic to fix the other issues that I caused to the car – I thought, OK here it comes… the painful reality. But I met the manager and could communicate well. He was a believer, and we had a great conversation! Then I met the owner who was also a believer. He told me that because we were students at the missionary school he would give us a great discount. My skeptical nature was still suspect but a couple of hours later I came away with only a $40 bill. In addition, I had the opportunity to talk with those 2 Christian men in Costa Rica about the vision God had laid on our hearts. Wow, encouragement can come from the most bizarre and unexpected places.
|The shop we used, which is closed on Sundays for worship.|
Does God sow the seeds of our future in the disappointments of today? Somehow, I am beginning to think this way. Biblically, I know this to be true. Experientially, I doubt more than I actually trust, especially while in the throes of frustrating or difficult circumstances.
Maybe you feel like you are drowning in despair or you feel like your difficulties are outweighing the good. Maybe you’re frustrated at God with the hand you have been dealt. I know my circumstances probably don’t compare with what you may be going through, but I have had far worse than this before. And we ALL struggle sometimes in deep sorrow.
But maybe, just maybe, our heavenly Father is sowing seeds of the future in the difficulties of today. And when it seems that sorrow is too difficult to bear, we need to remember that nothing may be as it appears. Maybe much is meant to be hidden from our view.